Washing My Hands of this Feeling.

Lately I have been feeling rather disappointed, hurt, and angry at my “friends”. I have become a convenience friend to them. Here is the Urban Dictionary definition of convenience friend.

Convenience friend:
A person who is only around when it is easy and convenient for them. They are the people who, if not placed around us, (ex. dorm rooms), all the time, they wouldn't really be friends. They are usually used to do things for you, if you need a ride to and from school, etc. They are basically friends who need you around when they need a favor, or when they are just so bored out of their minds that they would rather hang out with you than sit around all day, but they'd never put you first.
I have been a convenience friend for many of my “friends” for a while now, and it is actually getting really annoying. I am sure I do it to, usually I find myself doing it to acquaintances and old friends from my past. Usually when I make a friend, I am there by there side all the time. That is what makes it easy for people to use me for their will. I can’t remember when I received a text from a friend who truly wanted to talk to me and see how I am doing. Normally I am one to send the text to them.
For the past few months I have had friends, ask me to do things for them, or start a conversation and never respond after I respond to them. When I ask them to hang out or do something with me they blow me off or come up with some excuse as to why they can’t.
I then have the friends who tell me all I do is sit at home, well the answer is this I would rather sit at home then be with people because they are bored or don’t really want me to be around. I would rather sit at home with my ex-husband the be around people who don’t truly care about me.
I also don’t think I received a text message or any other type of message from my “friends” seeing how I was with my grandma’s passing. With that said, I need new real friends and I need to get rid of the people who don’t truly care.

Photography

I have always loved photography, I love looking at pictures from older times and present times. I truly love being in pictures, but I love taking them more.

 

I haven’t always been deeply into photography I really started taking my time and capturing beauty last May. I used the point in shoot Ski got me. I love it! It takes the best of pictures. My reactions are usually “oh wow this one is great” Or “I love this one”. Ski just recently got me a SLR and I am getting use to it. I actually used it on our friends new baby. It takes really great shots, but still intimidates me. Here are some pictures of the “shoot”

Operation Beautiful!

Recently I have been very involved with Operation Beautiful, it is a mass movement started by Caitlyn Boyle. She started it mainly as an out for the negative feelings she used to have. This one note started the snowball effect.

Eventually woman all over were taking part in Operation Beautiful by posting uplifting notes for other women to find. Post-It-Notes actually took part of the movement. Women would write a note on a Post-It, take a picture of it and e-mail it to Caitlyn. She then turned around and made a book out of the positive words.

This past weekend I have carried a Post-It-Note pad in my purse along with a Sharpie so I can randomly write a positive note for someone to find. When I write one and it stick on I don’t think of how it will effect me other then feeling so happy I am passing on the positivity. I am actually thinking how will this person react when they find it, and what will they do with the note. Will it move them to take part in the movement?

I started taking pictures of the notes I leave and I upload them to Facebook under the album Operation Beautiful. It is a very uplifting feeling to pass on the happiness!

operationbeautiful.com become part of the movement.