Washing My Hands of this Feeling.

Lately I have been feeling rather disappointed, hurt, and angry at my “friends”. I have become a convenience friend to them. Here is the Urban Dictionary definition of convenience friend.

Convenience friend:
A person who is only around when it is easy and convenient for them. They are the people who, if not placed around us, (ex. dorm rooms), all the time, they wouldn't really be friends. They are usually used to do things for you, if you need a ride to and from school, etc. They are basically friends who need you around when they need a favor, or when they are just so bored out of their minds that they would rather hang out with you than sit around all day, but they'd never put you first.
I have been a convenience friend for many of my “friends” for a while now, and it is actually getting really annoying. I am sure I do it to, usually I find myself doing it to acquaintances and old friends from my past. Usually when I make a friend, I am there by there side all the time. That is what makes it easy for people to use me for their will. I can’t remember when I received a text from a friend who truly wanted to talk to me and see how I am doing. Normally I am one to send the text to them.
For the past few months I have had friends, ask me to do things for them, or start a conversation and never respond after I respond to them. When I ask them to hang out or do something with me they blow me off or come up with some excuse as to why they can’t.
I then have the friends who tell me all I do is sit at home, well the answer is this I would rather sit at home then be with people because they are bored or don’t really want me to be around. I would rather sit at home with my ex-husband the be around people who don’t truly care about me.
I also don’t think I received a text message or any other type of message from my “friends” seeing how I was with my grandma’s passing. With that said, I need new real friends and I need to get rid of the people who don’t truly care.