Our Anniversary

This year for our anniversary Ski was extra romantic. He wouldn't tell me anything! He was very secretive about it and would just smirk knowing that it was driving me nuts not knowing where we were going.
He made us reservations at the Cliff House we had an amazing dinner there, and the room was just amazing! It was a great night away from the house and our worries. I am very lucky to have him. He also got me a beautiful necklace it looks like a key and I love it!

Thanksgiving!

I can't believe how fast this month has gone by! It seemed to zoom by, and I didn't get time to watch leaves change or wonder where the snow is. It finally snowed and stuck over night on Sunday night which was not fun to drive in. It has of course melted.


On another note, Ski and I took a vacation to visit our family. We of course drove since it is more economical. We made our first official stop in Iowa to see my grandma. It was wonderful I couldn't have been more stoked to see her! She moved into this great house apartment that is big and comfy for her. She has a huge yard to garden in and a huge kitchen to cook in. Those are her two all time favorite things! My grandma's house has always been a second home. When she moved to Iowa she moved into a small apartment that didn't feel like home for me or her. Now she has this amazing place and it feels, and smells like my childhood secondary home. She had decorated for Christmas for me, she set up her villages which I just loved to play with when I was little and her tree. We celebrated Christmas and Thanksgiving with her. She took us to this little town called Galena, IL since she lives on the edge of the Mississippi river and it's a 15 min drive to IL. I loved the little town it was so cozy feeling. We spent five days with her, saying goodbye was the hardest to do, but I will see her next year and that is what I have to look forward to!


Once we left Iowa we set out to Illinois to see Ski's family.Our first stop was to see his sister and celebrate Christmas with them. The first night we stayed at his sisters house which was nice, I felt really bad for making them sleep on the floor with their three old son. The second night we went and stayed with his mom, which to me was frightening. We stayed in the basement which was pretty much covered in spider webs. The last three nights we were in town we stayed in a hotel and it actually felt like a vacation. I spent as much time as I could with my niece since she has been going through a rough patch in her young life. She is just amazing, smart as can be and very fragile. I feel when we go and see his family all we are doing is running around to make sure we see everyone there is to see. Usually we can't see all of the family, but we see the ones that make the effort to see us in return. We had two Thanksgiving's there one with his dad and one with his mom. It was very busy and overwhelming, by the time I got to the hotel I was not only stuffed like a turkey by so sleepy I just stared at the TV for about two hours before realizing we had to get up early to leave.


Here is a slide of our adventures in Iowa and Illinois.

Life, Beauty, Change, Love, Friendships, Courage!

Laugh has thrown us all curve balls and with that it makes us who we are meant to be, it has also given us things to be thankful for everyday.

As I write this I am looking back on the last two weeks. Within that time I have changed, smiled and laughed until my ribs hurt. I use to think that life couldn't get any better then what it was and that I was dished a bunch of muck with some ice cream tossed in there.

These last two weeks I have realized that my life is truly more wonderful then I assumed it was. I also realized that the people that are put into my life are put their for a reason. Whether they are there to make me grow up and get on with life or just enjoy being with someone who makes me confident in the woman I am turning out be.

I know I sound selfish because I am just talking about me, but I honestly don't know how this person feels, but for now I want to selfish in this new friendship I have been granted.

I feel we are open about our days and life that we have gone through at that point in time. I enjoy just laughing about things with her equally and knowing that I see her as an equal not someone who is better then me or lower then me. The talks we have put the problems I go to her with in a new perspective and understanding I am not the only with the type of problems, in that I see beauty. That something so small, and innocent at it's first stages are amazing.

This is a change I think we both need in our life right now, we are what we need to hold each other up and just be there for each other. I have a love for her that no one will understand unless they have the same type of relationship we are trying to reach.

I have more courage knowing I have someone other then my wonderful husband to confide in. I love feeling confident in my life.

Change is inevitable.......So lets change!

I change a little bit every year. Everyone does it's like your chapter of their live novel. Sadly not everyone decides to change because they grow so comfortable with their lives as they are.

I have a "friend" that I have been friends with her for five years. In those five years I have changed so much that the people I use to associate with five years ago don't recognize the person that I am. She hasn't changed a single bit since we met. She still slacks in school because she just doesn't have the motivation to do it, she flakes out on activities we are going to do at the last minute and she could set up the activity and still flake on me. Change has to happen in order for people to have the relationship they need with the other person. She was an hour and a half late to my husband's birthday! Who does that! Then she was late to our Christmas Eve dinner by 2 hours so my family and I ate and then they waited for the two hours for her to show up.

She refuses to change,and I wont stop changing. I am tired of her not being the friend I need her to be. She calls me a bad friend because I wont accept her to be a bad friend to me. I have given her my time, I have given her gifts out of the blue. I was always on time to things. I finally told her I can't do this relationship anymore because I need to change. I might be a "bad" friend, but at least I am a better friend then she is.

Halloween=Decorating!

I love to decorate! So I am extra excited about this holiday season. I will be able to buy more for our house since we don't have a lot due to the fact we use to live in a small apartment. I have plenty of Christmas decorations, but fall, Halloween and Love day I don't have a lot. Here are just some pictures of the cute decorations we have.

Looking Back

When looking back at my life and marriage, I would have to say I am pretty happy with it. My family and I are closer then we were when I wasn't married. My sister and I are best friends now and we see each other every weekend if we can just to have our time.

My husband and I are doing awesome together. We had a rough patch in our marriage but who doesn't hit bumps when the things get tough and strained I'm some way or another. It took us years to make it happy again. When I look back at when we were first married and I look at our pictures we looked so innocent and unknowing of the world, now when I look at recent pictures I see that we have grown and learned to be the people we need to be to support our relationship and our lives. We are still individuals, but individuals whose souls are tied together. I am going for my degree for not only me, but for my small family. I have new goals in life regarding my degree plan. I get weird looks when I tell people I don't want children, but really it's not just my decision but Ski's as well. We decided to not have kids, because of our degree goals in life would just take away from our children and that's not fair to them. We would rather have a house full of dogs because then we could love them when we could and they wouldn't be emotionally hurt. I hope that the changes that are coming in our future will be the pleasant ones that will help us grow together.

Kurt Roy Quinones

Today was the annual memorial service for the fallen fire fighters in Widefield/Security area. It was gut wrenching and the worst heart break ever.

I thought that my heart healed from the loss of Kurt, but apparently I was wrong. I think everyone who was close to him thought wrong. When the Cheif of the Fire Departments in the area got to his name, he barely held it together. Which only means that our hearts were fooling us.

When you loose someone close to you a void that can never be filled takes up residents in your heart and it's not bad until you really think about it and you put yourself in a place that will be remembering that person.

Summer Catch Up Fall Beginnings

Where did my summer go?! I don't even know. It seems to have gone by so fast!
Let me try recap our summer. Ski continues to go to school and work. He now works the afternoon shift. Which is nice since I get to wake up with him and go to sleep with him. The only downfall is having to cook dinner for one person. It just seems like a hassle at times to cook a full meal just for one person. He still likes his job we are currently awaiting to hear that he got his T.S. We are also waiting to hear back to see if could get retirement from the Army since he was discharged at 50% disability. He should have gotten in when he originally got out, but since the Army didn't give it to him, along with a lot of soldiers a law farm is taking it to court. So either we will get it the right way or winning the case in court. I spent a lot of time at work along with my family.

While at work I met an amazing girl named Kaeli. I just love her. We are close like sisters and best friends, of course her mom is her number one best friend. I can be number two she says. :) I just love her family they are just so loving and caring.

My family from Montana came out for their yearly visit in the middle of August and that was nice. I got to spend a week with them since I took it off. Hopefully next year when they come out we do something new and not the same old routine.

A week later my cousin Nando and his awesome wife Jes came out for a visit. I spent two days with them. Sadly I couldn't take time off since I just got back from my previous week off.

I started my English course and my Sociology course on the 23 of August. It is going well I took my first test last Monday and I received a 92% percent on the test. I was very happy with the out come. For my English I have to do an argumentative paper I choose bullying/harassment. I am going for the side that it's the society within the school that sets the stage for the roles of victim and bullying. I hope it turns our alright. I feel very strongly about this paper.

Two weeks ago the store volunteered again the Race For the Cure as a baggage check. It went well we need a bigger truck and someone to help us stack. My auntie Debbie came out to help us and I loved seeing her. She is an amazing woman.

Well that's it for now, I will try to come weekly if not bi-weekly.I get so busy with work and school.

I stink at this!

The last time I updated I talked about Ski going into ROTC. Well that has changed yet again. He is now working at Northcom/Norad on Peterson, as a Securtiy Guard. He loves it, he has amazing co-workers that he gets to work with. When he went to get his ID card that told the office what type of Security Clearence he had he was informed that he had his clearence for two years. That meant he didn't have to leave Pinkerton. The past is past and this job is better for him mentally and income wise.

I am enrolled in PPCC again ( I put an application in at UCCS and was denied) I need to get my GPA up to 2.5. I am working with a transfer advisor from UCCS to make sure my classes I take will guarentee a transfer. Hopefully I will be at PPCC for only 2-3 semesters then transfer to UCCS with ease. I am not happy about going back to PPCC only because they always have me on hold for something or another and it just gets annoying having to go hunt down people to resolve the issue. They can't work together on it.

Spring here is not the Spring I love. We planted flowers in Feb/May and they died. I am thinking we will have to plant different flowers. That is kind of sad for me. This is my first garden I have and I have already killed the flowers. Thankfully my indoor flower is doing better, its still green and blooming.

I have all the paint colors to paint my bedroom, guest room, living room and kitchen/dining room. I am set to paint I can't wait! I hope to have the place all painted by the end of summer. I am also going to try to find some flower designs to go over the paint for my dining room since it will be painted green and yellow. I am excited to get rid of this ugly beige color I have lived with since the fist apartment I moved into.

UCCS ROTC

Ski is now a cadet at UCCS for their ROTC program. He has two years of school to go through then he will graduate with his bachelors degree in Criminal Justice at that point he will also commit to being a Soldier in US Army as an officer. I am so excited!

Its so cool to have a duffle bag and a ruck along with boots and ACU's in my home again. I know that sounds bad but I just miss the Army life.

Ski had his first PT test and failed it by a minute but beat his best time by two minutes. He says that within a couple of weeks he will be back up to his old self which will be awesome.